The answer is yes, it has. The scary thing is, in a way, these last two years were like a blur. They went fleeting by as much as I vowed for them not too. A lot has happened in my life in these last couple years, most importantly, having another healthy, beautiful baby boy. All at the same time, especially this year with this whole Covid thing, many things were forced to be put aside.
As I look back on the start of my blog, I feel like it was just yesterday when I decided to even create a site like this in the first place. Picking out the name, starting to write content, then, after only a year, shutting it down as I decided to redesign my entire site.
Now, I clearly admit, I wasn’t 100% ready when I originally got this blog up and running in the first place, a few years back. I thought I was as I sat here and wrote and posted pictures, yet deep down I felt it was missing something. That something was a deeper purpose. I wanted to add more value and create a deeper connection. So, not thinking of a time frame, I fearlessly dove in on my redesign.
I assumed I could shut this down for a brief bit and redo a few things here and there and add a few things here and there and have it back up and running in no time. Yet as with many things in life, (for the most part) always takes longer then planned. It’s just the way it goes.
So…my project I expected to last a few months, turned into two years…….
Yet it’s not like this site took me two solid years to create. In fact, when all put together, I’d say I could have had it done and wrapped up in just a few months…had I worked on it constantly, non-stop
and really pushed myself . Yet I didn’t. I started with my redesign and then I got a bit stuck on the behind the scenes computer side of it all. So I let it sit a bit. I started other projects I have plans for. Not to mention, life in general is always in competition for our time, energy, ideas, and our will to do things. Not that life is against us, but it throws in constant obstacles. Some of those obstacles lift us up, while others can completely knock us down. It is completely up to us on how we choose to overcome each and every one of those inconsistent obstacles.
Yet through it all, in all that time, I never lost my vision of what I longed to create.
Through it all, I’ve learned, no matter what life throws, it’s not a race.
Yes, it would have been nice to have had this site up and running again in only a few months, yet perhaps mentally I wouldn’t have been able to give it my all. Perhaps it just wasn’t the right time in my life. I have realized, if you just step back and learn to trust, things that are meant to come your way will and things that aren’t…won’t. But for that to work you have to have faith. You have to believe. You have to have trust. I have also realized, when we have a dream inside us, it doesn’t die. That dream might step aside for a bit by either our own will or by being forced aside, but it is rare that dream just dies. I have also learned you cannot be so hard on yourself, for you can only do what you can do and nothing more…as long as you just do your best.
When we create something from the heart, no matter if we finish first or finish last, that’s not the point. All that matters is that we finish what we had our heart set on.
So that brings me to now, where I’m at. I am back to writing again. Although this all took me a lot longer then I planned, it’s here now and (hopefully) smoothly running. I have to admit, I am quite pleased with the outcome of my deep efforts to make this little place on the web wonderful and beautiful and inspirational. I am happy to use my art to put some good into the world and I am happy to use my words to potentially inspire my readers on this site…because my heart is set on it.
So, thank you so much for being here! 
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