Spring came on quick this year...or did it...? I'm sitting on my laptop in my dining room, Indian style on my bench seat at my farmhouse table, warm Lemongrass Green tea beside me, my two-year-old sleeping on my lap. My big picture windows reminding me once again how unsettled nature is. Not even spring but summer came this past week out of nowhere. My boys went from hoodies and hats to being shirtless on the 'Slip n Slide' and splashing in the kiddie pool. That was two days ago. As I type this, it's snowing. I swear. No joke.
Nature can be so unpredictable, moody in her own sense. All while holding tight to her mission.
Lately that's how I have felt as well. See, I've crammed in so much with my art. I've got some amazing shows lined up, got all my work signed and ready to go and have a few new things on the way to make my entire display look more professional than it ever has. I'm excited to say the least. I've been on a mission, and it's been great.
At the same time, I have decided to take my work down a new path as well, a path that should leave me liberated and inspired yet it's been leaving me anything but. It's going to be a period of trial and error, as I know nothing happens overnight, yet it has not been feeling authentic to me. Not quite yet. So I, who usually is totally inspired and excited to try new things, have not been feeling I'm in the right place with it lately. So of course then it is hard to push on.
I know, I know, I created this blog to be an inspiration to others, to bring on hopes and encourage dreams, yet I'm sitting here typing how I've been feeling a bit uninspired lately? That's funny. Well, not really, but it is in its own way...I guess.
I guess my point is, we all have days, or weeks within us, (sometimes some may even months or years), that we are as extreme as the weather. We strive for so much only to be let down or finally realize how real the struggle really is. Even the ones who share tips to hold onto dreams and be inspired about life the way I do, go though it. We all have those moments or days where we just don't feel it. We just don't feel right.
Yet I'm here to say...that's ok and it's normal and actually it's a blessing. For if we did not have our down times, we would never recognize our up times.
And honestly, as I type this, I am feeling a bit more inspired then I was when I first sat down just at the simple fact, I hope I can help someone with this feeling too. I hope I can help someone realize dreams and missions in life are hard and a struggle. Yet no one ever said it would be easy, did they? If anything, we've all heard and many realize how hard it really is.
Yet it is the ones who never give up on that flame that burns deep inside who make it out on the other side.
I am also suddenly inspired again by the fact I have this blog and it is all mine and can come here anytime I feel the need to say something, anything, because I know there is someone, anyone, feeling this way too. And that's what it is really all about anyway. Connection though words at times when we feel alone. A blog post, a good book, words to a song. Certain things stay with us, reminding us once again...'we got this'.
So, I will end at this thought today. No matter your place right now, no matter your goal or mission...just keep going. Just keep pushing. Sometimes in the thick of it we don't see any progress, yet when you look back you're able to see how far you've really come.
It's basically about never giving up.
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