My little boy rests his head on my chest as I close the cover of yet another magical storybook, as he closes his sweet eyes for the night. Yet in this moment my mind does not rest beside his. My mind wanders off, deep in thought…as usual.
I stare at my son, his beautiful little face, and wonder how is it entire lives are lived…for generations…that bring me to this. This exact moment, right now, as my little boy’s heart beats strong inside him and my heart burst with love. A love I never knew existed or understood until I became a mother myself.
This moment was good.
Not everyone’s ‘now’ moments are good. They aren’t, not by any means. None of ours are. Not all of mine, not all of yours. We all go though pain and tough times.
There are ones sick in the hospital, ones falling in love to ones going through divorce, or heartbreak. There are ones who feel on top of the world right at this very moment to ones who feel hurtfully unheard, unseen and invisible to everyone as the world goes on around them. There are ones now giving birth…bringing a new life in this world to ones losing a loved one that lived a lifetime full.
We all pass through what life throws our way. Some of us make it out on the other side with hardly a scratch while others can barely hang on.
Yet either way, it amazes me to how we got here. All the things life throws...is it because of the choices our parents made, grandparents and great grandparents made through it all? Had they made different choices in life, never would you be you and I be me. Every single choice, every single thing that happened in the past of our ancestors brought us to us...to here. As we live our life bringing ourselves to this ‘now’ moment.
So what does that say for us now, living in this ‘now’ moment, reading these words on the screen typed out before you?
It’s the choices we make…now, tomorrow, next week, 5 years from now. These choices will not only effect you, your close loved ones, the people you interact with, your children and grandchildren but the generations to follow.
Not that we can control everything that happens in our life…in fact we can’t control half of it. Yet we can control our response to everything in our life. We cannot control the way others react, yet we can control how we react to the way others react. There in turn leaves us pretty much in control of just about the majority of things that come our way.
Being fully aware and mindful of this and making sure we make intentional choices will not only direct our own life in the right direction, leading us down a positive path, but the choices we make now will also affect generations and generations to come.
I close my eyes and take a deep breath and enjoy this moment for everything it is. My son safe in my arms, him knowing he has a secure place in my heart. I hope he passes on this deep love I give to him and way of life onto children of his own one day as those children will in turn pass on this love to theirs.
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